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Happy Now

by THICK

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1.
Happiness 02:19
Happiness from the outside in I look around and I breathe it in It fills my gut but it leaves me thin Happiness from the outside in Happiness from the outside Happiness from the outside I’ll take it all from the outside Happiness from the outside Look at me you’re just like me Look at me you’re just like me Like me now Like me now Happiness from the inside out I chew you up and I spit you out You fill my guts but you leave me with doubt Happiness from the inside out Happiness from the inside Happiness from the inside I’ll take it all from the inside Happiness from the inside Look at me you’re just like me Look at me you’re just like me Like me now Like me now Happiness like this Happiness like this Happiness like this Happiness like this
2.
I can’t even pick up my guitar these days Everything around me, it just falls apart Wish I could trust myself the way I trust everybody else Instead, you looked into my eyes and then you fucking lied I try Not to hate myself For what you did I try Not to blame myself For what you left me with I won’t even listen to the noise I make Everyone around me, they just move away Wish I could love myself the way I love everybody else Instead, you looked into my eyes and then you fucking lied I try Not to hate myself For what you did I try Not to blame myself For what you left me with I judge myself for laughing I judge myself for crying I judge myself for loving I just myself for lying I judge myself for breathing I judge myself for everything I do and everything I am I try Not to hate myself I try Not to hate myself I try Try not to hate myself For what you did I try Not to blame myself For what you left me with I, I try try not to hate myself for what you did I, I try try not to blame myself for what you left me with
3.
Loser 03:13
I’ve always gotten second place The only thing I own is my name I’ll take a seat in the back Shut my mouth, hide away I’m the bronze The two The side, the kick The one that falls behind I’m the bronze The two The side, the kick The one that falls behind You think that I’m a loser I love when people tell me I should quit I’ll never be a winner I love when people tell me I should quit I’m always getting overlooked No one’s ever seen or understood I’ll take a seat in the back Shut my mouth, hide away I’m the bronze The two The side, the kick The one that falls behind I’m the bronze The two The side, the kick The one that falls behind You think that I’m a loser I love when people tell me I should quit I’ll never be a winner I love when people tell me I should quit I’ll always be a loser I love when people tell me I should quit I’ll never be a winner I love when people tell me I should quit I’ll always be a loser I’ll always be a loser I’ll always be a loser I’ll always be a loser I’ll always be a
4.
Tell Myself 02:29
I’ve been hoping I’ve been dreaming away (You know I wish I could) I’m so thankful That all feelings do change (You know I wish I could) Tell myself that it will be alright and We’ll get past this It’s just a part of life I would teach her Listen to your own voice (You know I wish I could) How they see you Isn’t always your choice (You know I wish I could) Tell myself that it will be alright That we’ll get past this It’s just a part of life Tell myself that it will be alright and We’ll get past this Just a part of life Used to talk about getting old Can’t believe all the lies we told then Used to think about moving on Can’t believe all the things we got wrong Used to talk about getting old Can’t believe all the lies we told then Used to think about moving on Can’t believe all the things we got wrong Ooooo
5.
Her chapstick on your lips you kiss me Pretending that we cannot taste it Attracted to things that I can’t be Don’t you see she’s just a pipe dream I fell asleep alone again in our big bed last night Even though you were right there I try to hide my feelings I thought I could bury them beneath the ground I know that I can forgive you I don't know when Can’t guess what you need will you tell me I’ll try and get better at asking Ignoring the distance between us Are you better off without me? I fell asleep alone again in our big bed last night Even though you were right there I try to hide my feelings I thought I could bury them beneath the ground I know that I can forgive you I don't know when I try to hide my feelings I thought I would bury them beneath the ground And I know that I can forgive you I don't know when Wish we could go back to simpler times when I was yours you and you were only mine I know that I can forgive you I don't know when
6.
Your Garden 02:33
You plucked me like a flower from your garden Watched my leaves turn brown I said I’d like to go away from here You knew just how to keep me hanging around You thought you got away with all of the years That you dragged me down I know that bruises heal and so have I I’ll never wish you well, just get out of my life I hope you got what you deserved I hope you’re not lying to her Glad that I got out I’m so happy now I know that bruises heal, so have I I’ll never wish you well, just stay out of my life I know that bruises heal, so have I I’ll never wish you well, just stay out of my life I know that bruises heal, so have I I wish I could erase you out of my mind I know that bruises heal, so have I I’ll never wish you well, This is fucking goodbye I hope you got what you deserved I hope you’re not lying to her Glad that I got out I’m so happy now I hope you got what you deserved I hope you’re not lying to her Glad that I got out I’m so happy now I hope you got what you deserved (what you deserved) I hope you’re not lying to her (Lying to her) I hope you got what you deserved (What you deserved) Glad that I got out I’m so happy now Glad that I got out I’m so happy now
7.
Montreal 02:59
Take me to Montreal It’s not that far We’ll take our time as we drive out of Queens The pouring rain is all we can see I wanna know you with gray hair I wanna know you with gray hair I wanna know that you’ll be there I hope I know you with gray hair Let’s take a walk Let’s go get lost I see your eyes standing out in the crowd Feels like nobody else is around us I wanna know you with gray hair I wanna know you with gray hair I wanna know that you’ll be there I hope I know you with gray hair We’re in the same place I wanna be here forever Together at the same time And I’ve never felt safer And It’s right now I hope you know me with gray hair I hope you know me with gray hair And you should know that I’ll be there I wanna know you with gray hair
8.
I can’t get what I want If I don’t even know what that is I can’t get what I need If I’m not ever asking for it And I’m so zoned out with my face in my drink and I am too afraid Of what I’ll do or what I’ll say if I can’t get this out of here When I fail I do it fast I’ve got nothing left in this engine How can I offer help if you’re too stubborn to ever listen I’m so zoned out with my face in my drink and I am too afraid Of what I’ll do or what I’ll say if I can’t get this out I’m crying Crying everyday You are not to blame I’m fighting Fighting for a change Take it day by day When I give I give it all I’ve never loved like this before And how can I make you see you’re are all I want and all I need I’m so zoned out with my face in my drink and I am too afraid Of what I’ll do or what I’ll say if I can’t get this out I’m crying Crying everyday You are not to blame I’m fighting Fighting for a change Take it day by day I wanna live big I’m so tired of being surprised I wanna dream big I need more out of this life I wanna live big I wanna dream big And no one’s ever perfect Nothing’s ever perfect I never said I’m perfect No one’s ever perfect I’m crying Crying everyday You are not to blame I’m fighting Fighting for a change Take it day by day I’m crying (Crying, I’m crying every day) Crying every day (I’m crying every day) You are not to blame I’m fighting (I’m fighting) Fighting for a change (I’m fighting for a change, fighting for a change) Take it day by day
9.
Holding onto the things I used to love Searching for something that makes me feel at home Walk through the streets and nothing looks the same Change is forever, it’s always been that way Will I be happy again? Will I be happy again? I thought this place would last forever I thought my heart would never change its mind Maybe tomorrow I’ll feel different when I wake up Maybe tomorrow I’ll just stay inside Avoiding the future to chase down the past Grabbing for something I no longer have Oh how the lights in the city have changed Old nostalgia you’re leaving my veins Will I be happy again? Will I be happy again? I thought this place would last forever I thought my heart would never change its mind Maybe tomorrow I’ll feel different when I wake up Maybe tomorrow I’ll just stay inside Maybe tomorrow when I wake up Things will be different we’ll have it all Maybe tomorrow when I wake up Things will be different we’ll have it all Maybe tomorrow I’ll feel different when I wake up Maybe tomorrow I’ll just stay inside
10.
Disappear 03:18
You disappear when I’m right here Swallowed by voices that I can not hear I wish I could take all of your pain, bottle it up and I’ll throw it away Throw it away, throw it away, bottle it up and I’ll throw it away I wish I could take all my mistakes bottle them up and I’ll throw them away You disappear when I’m right here Taken by voices that you will not share I wish I could take all of your pain bottle it up and I’ll throw it away I’m holding you close your body and bones Desperately asking for you not go I’m watching you drown inside and out Swallowed by voices of all your self-doubt I wish I could take all of your pain bottle it up and I’ll throw it away Throw it away, throw it away, bottle it up and I’ll throw it away I’m holding you close your body and bones Desperately asking for you not to go I’m watching you drown inside and out Swallowed by voices of all your self-doubt I wish I could take all of your pain bottle it up and I’ll throw it away Throw it away, throw it away, bottle it up and I’ll throw it away You disappear when I’m right here You disappear when I’m right here Don’t disappear I’ll be right here Don’t disappear I'll stay right here
11.
I walk around with eyes in the back of my head Keep my body moving forward Take a picture of his info to give to my friends Gotta keep on moving forward Short skirt, tight pants dyed hair Late night too drunk who cares It doesn't matter what I’m thinking I'm all yours for the taking I don’t see you by 8 (Something Went Wrong) I don't call you by 9 (Something Went Wrong) I don't text you at 10 (Something Went Wrong) Why the fuck am I told it’s all my fault Wear a smile on your face while you’re walking around You’re a bitch if your angry It doesn't matter what I do or say or think You’ll always hate me Short skirt, tight pants dyed hair Late night too drunk who cares It doesn't matter what I’m thinking I'm all yours for the taking I don’t see you by 8 (Something Went Wrong) I don't call you by 9 (Something Went Wrong) I don't text you at 10 (Something Went Wrong) Why the fuck am I told it’s all my fault It doesn't matter what I say (All my fault) It doesn't matter what I want (All my fault) It doesn't matter what I think (All my fault) It doesn't matter what I need (All my fault) It doesn't matter who I am (All my fault) It doesn't matter who I was (All my fault) It doesn't matter who I’ll be (All my fault) It doesn't matter to you Cuz it’s all my fault

credits

released August 19, 2022

Nikki Sisti: vocals, guitar
Kate Black: vocals, bass, synth
Shari Page: vocals, drums

Producer, Engineer, Mix Engineer, Additional Percussion by Joel Hamilton
Assistant Engineer, Second Engineer by Justin Termotto
Mastering by Mike Tucci

Art Direction and design by THICK & Jason Link
Photos by Kait DeAngelis
Logo by Banana Bones

Thank you to our friends, family, and friends who have grown with us from the start. We love you.

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THICK Brooklyn, New York

Born from the DIY/all-ages scene in New York, THICK make music with the raw defiance of punk and addictive melodies of pop, punchy and catchy and wildly tongue-in-cheek. With their live show typically spawning a mosh pit described by Stereogum as “more like an aggressive hug,” the Brooklyn-based trio brings an unchecked intimacy while building a deep and unshakable solidarity with the audience. ... more

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